Fatalist at heart

I always say to myself that I don't beleive in fate. Not because I'm a control freak or a passive-agressive atheist (I think I'm agnostic anyway).
More so because I believe that if anyone were to sit still or isolate themselves from everything...NOTHING would happen..... arguably. It's the idea that no matter what you do, where you go, who you meet...you're life will follow a pre-determined path.
BALLS to that!!!!
Yet for the same reasons I would never... say.... walk into a church wearing a devil outfit or run around blaspheming at the top of my lungs or any other deliberately anti-messiah shit I could think of... I am trying not to piss off the gods/frauds of fate.
I don't want to put the hat on the bed, so to speak.
Point being that I do feel that we, The Dunes, are destined(yuk) for something more. Exactly what....who knows. Just more. Even if you are a fatalist, you can't know how your journey will end. Can you? If you believe that your path is pre-determined does that mean that you know where that path will lead you ultimately?
I doubt it.
I guess that's another reason fate bugs me. Hearing people talk about how they are destined for this that & the other. Fuck you!!!! For all you know you'll end up on welfare or working as a carnie, living with your cousin Sid, Or you might just lose your marbles one day out of nowhere (it's been documented) and have to spend your days strapped to a gurnie with a catheter up your knob and rocking a colostomy bag so the interns only have to "change" you once a week. Grim but plausible.

But I digress. In order to play both sides I am doing everything I can to forge my own path while at the same time paying attention to the "signs" (hypocrite) that I see. All the while trying not to be too much of an asshole while doing it because I TOTALLY believe in Karma.
That being said, I need a job to supplement my fate as I wait for it to happen 'cause this band gig ain't payin the bills yet. All offers will be considered...I'm flexible.